December 30, 2011

"on fresh things & last dances"

For two days in a row, I have been sleeping in and I am talking, getting up really late. I didn't manage to do half of what has been on the list and actually, only left the house to learn I am going to need glasses from now on. Watch out for my intellectual accessories, they are supposed to be ready within the next two weeks. Actually, it didn't come as a surprise and it kinda fits my expectations for the upcoming year; a lot of exciting changes. Sitting here, having a drink and letting my mind going through the old year, I feel exhausted and contend at the same time. Some tough moments have been followed by truly amazing ones, tears and laughter spread rather equal. Or is it, we note one more than the other. What I will keep close to my heart, are a big number of absolutely wonderful people that have crossed my path over the last twelve months. I am truly greatful for that and hope this will continue over next year. For now, I want thank you all for staying with the Fishbowl, for all the interest in the little stories I was writing, all those comments and emails. They have been a huge inspiration. I cannot say it often enough, how much this is appreciated. To relaxed endings, unknown beginnings, to a memorable old year and much hope for the new one. Cheers to you all.

December 27, 2011

"the opposite"

One happy moment directly influences the next one; the understanding of this, must have been my greatest Christmas present this year. What an amazing thing to spent the Holidays with people who are close to your heart and who make you feel very special. Thank you, family and friends, for such easy going, delicious, loud laughing and cosy hours. I have loved every minute of it and can't wait for another magic night to farewell the old year and welcome the sparkling new. I hope you all had such a good dose of fun, love and joy. Sometimes things simply cannot get any better.

December 24, 2011

"Happy Holidays"

Flying out of the Fishbowl; leaving to hug family and friends, to celebrate all that is good and of course, to make it a delicious party. The studio is almost sorted, some decoration inlcuded, we have nearly done all the dishes and only some mail is left on the desk. Maybe some dancing would be appropriate. For starters, I wish everybody a wonderful Christmas. Enjoy the upcoming days and take a break from the more difficult things. Happy Holidays to all of you!

December 21, 2011

"a humble artist"

Recently I got interviewed for w i r magazin, a publication for and about alumni of the Freie Universit├Ąt Berlin. It had been an article about former students, who are trying to make their way within the cultural industry and about the things that drive them the most. I had been telling the story about me and my beloved grandfather; a man who has been a huge inspiration to me ever since, someone who taught me to believe in myself, but also someone with quite a few shadows lingering around his biography. Coming to understand these kinda gaps, still keeps me thinking. It definitely has triggered my deep interest in personal and collective memories, the ways we handle them and what they mean to our present. A great part of my creative work involves that. Today a copy of the printed wir issue found it's way into the Fishbowl's mailbox and I have to say, it looks much better than I could have expected. Thank you Bernd Wannenmacher for a very pleasant experience and for pictures, even my critical self is totally comfortable with.

December 17, 2011

"two things left"

Yesterday's storm and heavy rain have gone and things seem to have calmed down. This has been a weird week; some hours busy like a hundred sparrows flapping their tiny wings. Other moments absolutely quiet, appearing like no busy Holiday season would exist at all. Nothing in between. Now, one week before Christmas there are two bigger events left, before we will finally start to dive into our own festive mode at the Fishbowl. The branch-sculptures are leaving for a little trip by tomorrow and a birthday is waiting right behind. Not too bad for a weekend perspective. I hope you will enjoy yours equally.

December 12, 2011

"on the change of affections"

Sometimes I will find myself making up stories of other people's lifes. In  my head, silently. On other occasions, though I probably shouldn't, it will be a more serious approach on what there is to hear or to witness. Not that it is my business, but I cannot help it. And then there are the moments, when their business will cross mine and I feel kinda helpness. Not knowing what to do. There is this girl living in our building. Right above our bedroom. She is a very nice and friendly person, rather shy, always with a sweet smile on her face. Whenever you'll meet her. Over the last four months though, she has developed a few habits, that are starting to really get to me. Besides taking a shower at least three times a day, especially before the first bird is even opening one eye and last times, somewhere around two o'clock at night, she also seems to clean her tiny appartment two times a day. Every day. Vacuum cleaning and furniture arranging, over your head, isn't exactly helpful, when you're trying to get to sleep. In the beginning I became quite angry, I even screamed towards the ceiling. But with all her machines and water running, of course, she didn't hear me. Luckily, she didn't notice one word I've shouted to her furiously, when I have no idea, what I am supposed to actually tell her. To stop that bloody noice, when it is clear as daylight, that something is wrong here. What would a discussion lead to? That something might have happened to her or that she had developed a serious mania of cleanliness. Who am I to tell her that. Who am I, to cross such a line, when she probably knows much more for herself anyway. When cleaning and showering could be the only ways to handle things right now. Last night, when listening to her raving and pacing around, I suddenly felt at peace. I made a descision to wait a while and see how things are a few weeks ahead. Of course, in the end, when she will go on, I'll have to have some kind of conversation. But for the moment, something is holding me back.

December 06, 2011

"less thunder, more light"

Very often, when working on an EnvironmentInstallation, the most tricky part is the lighting. It can get quite difficult to find the right colors, shades or forms, ready made in some shop. In the end, we will find ourselves designing lamps from scratch or from recycled, vintage pieces. I just love using things with some history im my art. As a lot of our visitors have been asking recently, where we buy our lamps from or if the ones they find in the studio are for sale, we've decided to give it a try and design some lampshades, not connected to any installation. This is what came out of it; a little Pop-up-store set up for the month of December, showcasing what we have been doing lately.

Opening hours at the

Thursday & Friday 4 to 8 p.m.
Saturday 1 to 6 p.m.

Atelier Schmidt
Sanderstra├če 20
12047 Berlin
phone +493050968476

If you are in the Berlin area, you are most welcome to visit us at the Fishbowl, have a look around and maybe, share a cup of hot tea or a glass of red wine with us. For now, I desperately need some coffee and a good dose of christmas cookies, made by a dear friend. Maybe I will leave some for you.

"stocking up"

It has been a while, but now there are new things to find at the  
Come on over and have a look.
And, I promise more things will follow within the next days.

December 05, 2011

"loose ends"

It's been one hell of a busy week and I am actually not able to tell you how many hours we have spent in the Fishbowl. The only things I do know are, that those hours included more than 200 metres of string, tons of glue, stacks of paper, as well as almonds, chestnuts and even more lentils. In the middle of processes like this, I tend to become a tiny bit hysterical, but at the end of the day, the only thing that counts is the amazing feeling to have things set up and look the way you wanted to look them. In all modesty; a proud Monday moment. And a very gratefull one too, as this could not have been done without the incredible support of the husband. Thank you Mr. B. for all your energy and patience. Very soon I will post pictures from the Pop-up-Store and there are going to be fresh & shiny new pieces at the Takeaway-Art-Shop.

November 28, 2011

"standing & out"

Sometimes we learn about another person's attitude from one second to another. Sometimes the experience isn't all too pleasant, sometimes even hurtful. When this is related to a person we have thought to know quite well and for a long time, it can deal a pretty good blow. Happening to me today, I was in shock for a moment. And there was sadness; finding out what I love is not relevant for the other. Even more, it is not wanted at all. The sadness felt bitter a few minutes later, developing a pinch of anger. Still, it brought me nowhere. I felt stuck like a deer in headlights and it was awful, when someone else handed me a warm scarf of understanding. It helped to overcome that paralyzed feeling and to start thinking straight again. I am still a bit sad, but that is alright with me. We probably need to accept other people's choices as what they are, their choices. Not related to us, nor to support or to fight us. As simple or as hard this might be. What we want, is what we decide. The same with the things we don't want. I decide to life and to happiness, for myself. There is no more I can do. Besides a little applogizing, for being that heavy tonight.

November 25, 2011

"on making things"

It is back to a lot of studio hours, intensive kitchen time and short lunch breaks. In other words, and I am not sure how often I did write this over the year; it is back to being busy in the Fishbowl. Almost everybody working in the creative industries will be feeling the same right now, and somewhere in between filling the takeaway-art-shop with new stuff, assisting the husband with his chocolate workshops and preparing for the pop-up store in the studio, I am laughing out loud. Crossing my own lines sometimes, which can be as much of bad than a good thing, seems to be just what I do. So, over the next days there will be a lot of news to tell, until then, consider me dirty handed.

November 21, 2011

"one night with Hamdi"

Though our desks are extremely packed and the days seem always too short, once in a while we manage to take some time off and explore other people's projects. For one night last week, we had the pleasure to meet up with Hamdi in Charlottenburg. King@Kreuzberg is the newest project of actor and director Aykut Kayacik, who wrote this brilliant script about the adventures of Hamdi, a Berlin businessman with Turkish roots, who refers to himself as the King of Kreuzberg. We had been invited to a scenic reading. Together with some of Germany's finest actors, Aykut and his friends brought that Kreuzberg microcosm to life. And when I say to life, I mean it. Actually, I cannot remember when it had been the last time, I have laughed that hard and had so much fun, listening to a bunch of people on a stage. It has been absolutely great and the only whish open when leaving the place, was that the series is going to get realized by some smart producer. It is about time for many others to meet up with Hamdi.

P.S. The reading took place within the small, but very good festival 30 Tage Kunst.The festival runs until the end of November. Go and have a look at their program, it will be absolutely worth a visit.

November 19, 2011

"preparations & other sins"

The Fishbowl is in full swing, preparing another Speak Easy Club. Since last night the husband is cooking and smoking around the stove, a lovely break included, to make it a great studio night for our guests and for us. I was playing with a new recipe for the welcome drink; filling up rosmary, lemon and gin for a champagne cocktail. A weird experience to work with alcohol in the morning, but as the streets are dark now, I can't wait to try it. I believe we are up to having a wonderful meal. For all my vegetarian readers, the menue includes a lot of vegetables too, only when these go into the pans, I will be in no state to post any pictures no more; hopefully taking a shower and making myself a proper looking host.


*Cappuccino of
Brussel Sprouts

*Osso Bucco
with oven baked Fennel

*Pumpkin Strudel
Espresso Parfait

Before I totally forget it; the bell system is fixed. No more annoying noise. Thank you for the nice comments and questions on how I cope with the sound. I am plug free since three days. Now, there are flowers to arrange and candles to lit. Have a wonderful night too.